i carry your heart.

yawns.

2009-09-01T08:47:00.000+08:00

good morning earthlings!

just got back from night shift. yawns.
k bye. nak tido.

2009-08-21T21:12:00.001+08:00

"i always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh.

but i never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry."

2009-08-11T14:06:00.002+08:00

good-byes will always hurt,
pictures will never replace having been there,
memories good and bad will bring tears and words can never replace feelings.

2009-08-09T22:58:00.001+08:00

happy birthday singapore!

one word: SIGH!
trying my best not to make this post sound depressing.
but hell yeah, life's been a hell one. hahah.

people might get shocked if i say this.
have been wanting to poc fast but when the day came,
i never thought it would be so hard. i dont know.
its just this feeling inside of me.
i suddenly started to miss all the things that i hate in camp.
like pts, water parade and all.
but i miss my bunkmates the most for sure!

oh wells, sadly life goes on.

i know this is too early to say,
but i dont know if i can stay there like after two years.
the stress level, the expectations i have to meet is just too much.
sometimes i feel that i just want to breakdown.
have always thought if this is what i really want to do.
i need time to adapt. alot of time.

i get worried and pressurized most of the time.
and i totally hate this feeling. tsk tsk.

but nothing's gonna bring me down now that i've crossed every line.
(trying to be positive here. heh.)

anyways
i realised the importance of happiness in life.
you may have all the money, fame and love in the world,
but what can you do with it?
i may be paid low for whatever jobs i do,
but its the passion i have for it matters the most.

would you rather do something you love or
doing something that as though you're being forced to do?

who says life is a smooth sailing journey?
now can somebody tell me about that?

i dont know what is wrong with me.
every little thing just dont go my way. everything.
like seriously.

and you! yes you. i like you. i seriously do.
but i dont know if this is the right time yet.
give me some time will you?

make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes.

in need of sleep

2009-08-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

damn pissed right now.

what kind of customer service was that.

they didnt know that they're messing with the wrong person.

on a happier note, i had a great day today.

although it got sucky towards the end. but its ok.

havent got a proper sleep for the past 38 hours.

yesterday night was madness.

enjoying every bits of my off days while it lasts.

gotta start work on monday. oh noooo delta.

one word for now: SHAGGED.

i shall update again. sooooooooooooon.

2009-07-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

PRE POC PARTY

17/07/09. Squad R1/09.

Location: Charlie Coy, HTA.

4 - 3 - 2 - 1 POC-OHHH!!!

POC OH!

2009-07-12T17:28:00.005+08:00

SEVEN working days left to FREEEEEEEEDOM!

the day i've been waiting for is finally coming.

all the hard works, sacrifices made is worth the while.

22/07/2009.

the day i'll make my parents and myself proud.

the special moment in my life.

success is getting and achieving what you want.

happiness is wanting and being content with what you get.

wet sunday

2009-07-05T17:03:00.002+08:00

its a rainy sundayy.

nice weather to tuck and sleep in.

yeah right.. if only i have that pleasure.

its 5pm. gotta leave the house at 7.

for booking in. and i have yet to pack my stuffs.

ya Allah. malas nyer aku.

im still not sure how many weeks i have left.

i still dont know the poc confirmed date.

this is a torture to me.

i really want to get my ass out of there.

nothing sucks more than this.

anyway,

life has been okay.

i always get restless and get irritated easily these days.

dont know exactly why.

bleah. i lazy to blog.

take care all.

i wish i was a little girl again because scraped knees are easier to heal than a broken heart.

The siblings

2009-06-27T15:35:00.003+08:00

random pictures when we were younger.

those times were bliss. nothing to worry about.

today gonna be a stay home saturday.

so stressed with everything. withe exams and all.

poc date kena extended. give up hoping and waiting.

have a great saturday people.

you're the first thought in the morning and the last at night.

2009-06-21T18:11:00.003+08:00

oh hello.

sunday night is here yet again.

waiting patiently for friday to come.

cant wait for the weekends.

might be going to batam for a short getaway!

but first, let the week pass by fast.

MALAS NYER NAK BOOK IN!!! sigh.

we'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes.

250409 peeks

2009-06-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

25/04/09 pictorials.

Location: Comfort Driving Center & Hajjah Maimunah's Restaurant.

With Squadmates, R1/09! :))

2009-06-09T11:58:00.003+08:00

hey people!

guess what. i'm on 2 days mc again.

and that explains why i'm at home blogging now.

HELL NO TO CHOW KENG! hehe.

anyways the past weekend has been very tiring.

its even more tiring than working on a full shift at swensens.

dont know why our sqd always kena deployed.

one after another deployment. kite dah macam saikang squad.

thanks to our "sikit atas" oc. thanks eh!

our weekend got burnt cause of this convention.

kalau satu hari takper. from friday to sunday.

melampau! darah up up and away jer.

on a happier note,

i'm so glad the three days is over.

although it was very dreading and boringgg,

we managed to take lots of peeks which i will post when i'm free.

or maybe can chack out my facebook album.

i will be booking in tonight!

and will be booking out on thursday!

dah macam 3day2night chalet. hehehe.

anyhooooooo..

this weekend will be my attachment!

ECHO DIVISION! sikit atas punyer division.

and i'm attached to orchard NPC. omg omg omg.

one of the busiest i should say. suddenly it seems so scary merrrryyyy.

hopefully everything goes well.

this weekend is also pay day!

wooohhooo! so many shopping to do.

i seriously cant wait for july.

the only thing that im desperate now is to poc.

till then people. stay cool eat ice!

what hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say.

and watching you walk away never knowing what could have been.

jatuh air mataku.

2009-06-01T17:18:00.001+08:00

june is here.

two more months to go.

cant wait cant wait cant wait to poc.

anyways,

i've been staying home for a few days already.

cause of some stomach infection.

i cant move much. ape lagi nak lari.

this seriously suck big time.

next appointment will be in two weeks time.

which will determine if i have to undergo operation or not.

i hope not. i cant afford to be sick now.

all i can do now is to pray hard. i need to be well.

for some reasons,

i've been feeling rather low these days.

i listened to all the songs we love.

but those happy songs suddenly seems so sad now.

i long for your random hugs.

i missed the way you always make me laugh over nothing.

the walks and talks. the fights and the tears we cried.

those memories will forever kept in my heart.

why do all good things must come to an end?

things is so much different now.

everything seems pointless and meaningless.

oh i wish i could hide this pain away.

i need time to be better.

i need time to adapt to not having you anymore.

o Allah, give me the strength.

anyhoo its monday night.

and i have to be back in camp in a while.

ape lah nasib aku, dah macam kentang.

if i were a shadow, i would always follow.

we would face things together in every tomorrows.

lost

2009-05-31T22:56:00.003+08:00

the day i lost you, i lost myself.

enough said.

birthday wishes.

2009-05-17T19:37:00.000+08:00

hey ho, lets go! :)

okay. this gonna be a short post.

its been a hell of a week in camp.

but the good thing is that, we're done with everything.

psoc down, final ippt down, drill test down, pdt down.

left with sbt and block 2 exam!

and our estimated poc date is 5th july! wooo.

thats a date to look forward to,

although i got a feeling that it'll be extended to end of july.

but nvm. 2 more months to go!

go go go go go go! tahan only laaa.

the weekend have been a blast with capital B.

friday night was beach rd and lepaking at keppel bay.

saturday night was spent with the lovelies at vivolurvo.

and then meet up with the usual crazy bunch in hta. lol.

we had sheeshaa until 2am.

afterwhich to simpang bedok to eatttt like theres no tomorrow.

and off to marina barrage till sunrise. shuk tido tendang org sey. lol.

and finally reached home this morning at nine.

wahh. its beeen one whole night i should say.

slept until 2pm.

woke up, eat, sleep again.

and then went driving with dad. huhuhu.

i'm a happy gerl. :)

but no way i can run away from reality.

its sunday night, and its book in night. boringgg.

1 and a half week left. and whats next?

i dont know how its goin to be like.

things will definitely change but i hope you wont.

haiz. reality sucks, truth hurts.

pictorials will be up on next week's post.

three days to go to one year older and one step wiser.

happy advance birthday to kamal, hafiz and me. :)

enjoy your special day as much as you can. cos i know i will.

padahal kat camp sey. hehehe.

till then lovelies,

stay cool eat ice. have a great week. au revoir.

p/s: kate short post,tapi panjang jugak. -_-"

i remember when you came with me that night. we said forever that you would never let me go. but here i am again with nothing left inside. i dont wanna but i gotta let you go.

BOOK IN

2009-05-10T16:50:00.003+08:00

3 hours to book in! sigh.

134th intake just POP-ed last thursday.

the gerek people left me alone.

no more lepaking kat belakang coy :(

in fact i missed them already.

the past few weeks have been busy with pracs.

didnt have much time to spend with them.

we didnt even take peeks together.

exactly 12 days in camp left.

and then its gonna be, "be without you".

shall not elaborate further.

days without you in camp will be, only god knows how it feels.

sigh.

nothing to look forward to for the next 3 months.

not even my birthday. i know kamal does.

he do countdown for us everyday.

wahhhh i sound so depressed. indeed i am!

i dont know whats in store for me this whole week.

hopefully it wont be that much.

but i know there's alot more to go. haiz.

cant wait for next weekend.

cant wait for july to come. cant wait for poc.

cant wait to go holiday. in short,

i'm just getting sick and tired with everything.

i cant think anymore. bye.

suara dengarkan lah aku. apakah aku slalu di hatinya.

aku di sini menunggunya. masih berharap di dalam hatinya.

CLASS 3 BABY.

2009-05-09T14:11:00.002+08:00

WOOOOHHHHHOOOOO!

SWINE.

2009-05-03T21:59:00.001+08:00

wahh.

baru harini mc tak book in.

dengar dengar dah kecoh kat hta.

ni lah gara gara swine flu.

makan babi banyak banyak. kan dah ade penyakit.

KECOH BETOL AH!

misunderstand.

2009-04-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

now i finally understood.

why this people have been tagging me.

k seriously i have no idea

what was it all about at first.

to fairytopia,

thousands of apologies if you get offended

with my previous post. didnt mean it.

and to clarify things further.

the bloghopper that tagged your blog is seriously not me.

i didnt notice it until i actually went to your blog to see.

this is a very big misunderstanding.

i dont get it when angel tagged me saying

i'm not brave enough to face the situation.

and now i get it.

i dont go bloghopping and

leave those kinds of remarks at people's blog.

why would i wanna do that in the first place.

your hubby and i are mates.

and i dont want to make enemy with anyone.

now i've done my part.

and i hope you do yours too. peace yaw.

anyways its sunday.

and its back to some serious business later.

hell is coming. tsk tsk.

i shall do the proper blogging when i'm back

since its gonna be a long weekend.

till then,

stay cool eat ice. and peace no war.

have a great week .cheerios!

when i'm not with you, my heart goes to bed.

CBB

2009-04-19T19:17:00.003+08:00

i dont understand why

there's still hate taggers now.

i mean, its my blog.

i have the right to say anything i want.

do i?

i dont even know who you are.

come to my blog and say i talked about you?

c'mon. what makes you think i talk about you?

in the first place, why would you bother sia.

tsk tsk.

some people just got nothing better to do.

whatever lah eh. asal kaw bahagia sua.

anyways

the past week have been very slacked.

keng almost everyday. perangaii kepe aku. lols.

dont know why, but the week has been lonely.

kenapa oh mengapa?

this coming week will be okay i guess.

just wanna get it done and over with.

seriously, cant be bothered anymore.

i want to poc fast. thats all i want now, badly.

birthday is in a month's time.

nothing to look forward to also.

weekend have been okay.

spent time with the best boyfriend and jrp mates.

shall post the pics next week.

gotta go.

have a great week people. stay cool eat ice.

i didnt cry the day you moved away.

UBIN

2009-04-12T19:24:00.002+08:00

evening earthlings! :)

alright, i've got exactly thirty minutes to blog,

before i go get ready for book in. so gotta make this a quick one.

anyways,

things have been very hectic for me. really hectic.

with exams, leadership camp, lessons.

over stressed, pressure and all.

but Alhamdulillah,

everything went on smoothly.

praises to Allah.

guess what.

with all my hardwork,

two weekends staying at home.

which is very unlike of me.

I PASSED MY LAW EXAM!

*jumps for joy* teeheee.

anyways,

just got back from pulau ubin on thursday.

damn it was hell. ok maybe not really.

cause i managed to skip PT cos of some reasons.

and i'm all barbequed to perfection.

LOL.

i think i've never been this dark

or should i say tanned like this all my life.

but i like it! hehehe.

half of the good friday was spent at home

replenishing all the energy.

and then met the one that calls me startlet,

in the evening for a simple dinner at kfc.

and then we chilled, talked and all.

somehow i missed the times

when we were much closer.

the walks and talks.

the late night lepaks and all.

dont know why somehow we kinda drifted.

maybe its my fault.

cause i never bother and make an effort.

blah whatever.

and then on saturday night,

chilled at east coast park.

enjoyed the night breeze with the great people.

what more can a happy girl asked for?

and now, here i am.

sunday night. book in night.

i hope the upcoming week will be better.

i'm just getting tired of everything.

the only thing i'm looking forward is to meet sayang later!

i missss your hugggiesss. *bluekk*

i'm actually angry and irritated over something,

but i shall not pursue the matter. just a word of advice.

if you wanna mess with me,

then i think you're messing with the wrong person.

but fuck. who the hell cares.

have a good week ahead people.

stay cool eat ice. cheeeeriioosss. :)

the very first day of my life was the day you let me go.

GUESS WHO'S BACK?

2009-03-28T23:28:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings!

yall must be wondering what the fcuk
i'm doing at home at this time right? its a saturday night!
and i'm stucked. k bedek.
not stuck. just being plain lazy.

i'll tell the reason why at a later part.

anyways,
sorry for going missing the past two weeks.
been very busy, like seriously.
the weekend's always seems too short for me.
and the days in camp takes like forever.

k, i dont really actually know what to blog about.
err maybe i should do abit of recap what happened the past two weeks?

tuh pon kalau aku ingat ah. LOL.

hmmm k,
nvm forget it.
all i remembered was, it had been hell.
it has always been.

training's getting tougher each day.
body and mind getting tired everytime.
sometimes i just wish i could run away from there.

now, my hamstring is giving me problem.
damn injuries. please go away.
i hate to always be in pain. i really hate it.
because of that, i seriously hate to run now.
well, who does right?

alright now,
the reason why i'm at home?

cause this two upcoming week will be my exam week.
sigh. its very stressfoool. i hate to be under lots of pressure.
and everything is happening at the same time.

defence tactics theory and practical test on monday.
psoc on tuesday and alot of PT's.
swimming and SBT assessment on friday.
late evening driving lessons. law exams on the following monday.
afterwhich i'll be away for some camp at pulau ubin.

i dont know how to go through next week.
i just want it to get done and over with.
but at the same time, i want to do it well.
i'm just worried i might screw everything up. which i hope i wont.

c'mon mariah. have a little faith.

anyways, before i go.
here's the pictorials with the squadmates.
supper at newton on 13th feb.
mucho gracias for the long awaited peeks. gambar dah basi.

i shall blog again once everything is settled.
tunggu lah sampai berjanggut.

till then,
stay cool eat ice. good night :)

hidayat, our abang abang tunang.

the couples.

my stoopid hair. thats fifi and baoling.

zion, ahpek ahbeng.

han and mat bunga, boon.

kakak wawa.

what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you.

STRAINS.

2009-03-08T15:39:00.000+08:00

noons lovelies!

here's the weekly update.

first thing,
i'm so glad that the week is over.
for some reasons that i dont know why.
i just thought this week was hell.

had our second IPPT on weds,
which i managed to pass.
and then on thursday the leg condition got worst.
cant even complete 2 rounds. damn sey.
really gotta take care of my leg injury before it gets even worser.
hopefully nothing serious lar.

highlight of the week: FILMING!
got selected to appear in the training video.
spend almost half of the afternoon just to shoot.
pretty tiring i should say.
i thought it was a stupid waste of time
but its actually quite a pleasant experience.

and the other highlight was,
the eye-to-eye with eyecandy.
i swear i was melting.
HAHAHA. k stop it eh mariah!

apart from all that, nothing much.
on friday, had to do OB duty again.
cause of that i have to book in early today.
and that explains why the early update. hehe.

on a happier note,
the weekends was awesome. :))

dinner at beach road, shisha at Al-Tazzaq and tanjung rhu
with the gile-gile mates on friday.

sentosa and movie marathon at vivolurvo on saturday.
Push was nice, Marley and Me was stupid.

anyhow,
looking forward for the 10th,
cause someone just got enlisted.
which means i can always seeeee him around HTA. :)

this coming week will be okay i hope.
less PT, thank god. macam tau-tau jer kaki aku sakit.
will be on course for first-aid the whole week
and will be having alot of lessons.

cant wait for the next weekend.
cause its friday the 13th.
its book out day and the best thing, its pay day!

and will be meeting my mother whom i havent met for sooo long.
friday friday, faster come. :)

till then,
have a great week. stay cool eat ice. xD

i deserved more than empty words and promises.

MARCH BABY!

2009-03-01T19:15:00.004+08:00

hey there!

k i have 15 mins to blog.
running out of time already. need to go out in a while.

anyways the past week has been okay.
as usual. but its been raining all the time.
and sadly, training will still resume. hahahah.
hate to walk/march with the raincoat on.
cause i looooook stupid in it. thats what ssufy claims. -_-"

the weekend have been great.

meet ups with the boopies for pink panther 2 on friday after book out at jrp.
a very stupid movie to me.
and i was waiting impatiently for the show to end all the time. lol.
and then went to swensens to see the peeps. and got a free ice cream!
haha. and then we chilled at starbucks awhile before we went our separate ways.
its been so long since we all last met and i'm glad we did. :)

saturday was supposed to be sentosa. but it got backfired.
went to meet nadiah earlier cos she wanted to
pass me my insole for my shoe.
but she forget all about it when she reached my block.
selenger.
and then stayed home till late afternoon.
afterwhich went to expo for the BIKE ASIA show.
suntec city, arab street for shisha. and then it was supper at bb with rin.
oh boy, what a cold night.

this coming week will be hell, i think?
night classes will be starting. which means cant lepak at night.
hahaha. and my bunk will be shifting to level 3.

cant wait for every thursday night.
cause its ladies night. heeeeeeee. *kening naik naik*

k gtg for now.
gotta shower before i run late.
have a great week ahead people. i'll be back.
till then, stay coooooooool eat ice. xD

and oh, happy 21st birthday to fahmy the farmer.
and happy 18th sirajjjj kasturi baby.

when nobody hears you scream, i'll scream with you.

evening.

2009-02-22T18:50:00.001+08:00

good evening earthlings! xD

hmmm okay where shall i begin.
lets do a recap for this entire week.

nothing much actually.
quite slacked i should say. actually very slacked.
but i likeee! cause there wasnt much training to do.

but well, was quite relieved that the week is over.
WHY?
cause i passed my shooting test at first attempt!
cool shit or what. heeeeee.

my right hand got really swollen during the first few days.
and some of the sqdmates even got blisters on their fingers.
damn lucky mine wasnt that bad.

and the people at the range werent that bad actually.
some of the guys were saying that i actually flirted with them.
but hell no! they were the ones! hahaha.
after everything's over, we even took pics with them.
what a great and pleasant experience.
:)

anyways,
i'm not really sure what's gonna happen this coming week.
but i can smell that the hell will be starting again.
nevermind, endure, determination and perseverance.

okay, this might be abit weird.
but i'm starting to like my camp life.
maybe because i've adapt well
or maybe just because of someone.
damn. stoooopid cupid. xP
somehow or rather, i'm looking forward to this book in.
and the days ahead.
teeehheeee. *SHY SHY CAT*

this weekend has been okay.
dinner with someone and late night lepaks and of course,
quality time spent with the family at bedok corner,
changi beach and kent ridge park.
what more can a happy girl ask for?

anyhoos,
looking forward to next weekend.
GST money, gathering with the boopies and the sentosa outing.
*jumps around*

till then,
have a great weekend.
seperti biasa, stay coooooool eat ice.
xD

and oh, happy 21st birthday shahirah bte sarwan!

do you catch your breathe when i look at you?

R1/09

2009-02-15T19:22:00.001+08:00

hey people!

the whole of this week at camp was crazy.
seriously crazy. monday blues seriously suck.
just happened to be me on that day.

did OB duty on one of the day.
slack like hell. basically ate and ate so i wont fall asleep.
damn those calories. but managed to escape physical training.
heard it was tough doing intervals. lols.

and then there was a new intake on tuesday. damn they got 8 gerls.
anyways, me and buddy had to do some stuffs for them since we were
in-charge of the orderly barrack on that day. prepared all the stuffs for them.

i'm so relieved that this week is over.
and i passed my IPPT! farking happy sey.
that all matters the most. :)

anyhoos,
on friday night after booking out, met with the squadmates at newton for supper. cause its our first pay! boy, it was damn crazy. we had three long tables and we ate like there's no tomorrow. i definitely enjoyed being with them. will post the peeeks when i got all of it from farhan.

and then had an impromtu meet up with someone. afterwhich we hanged out at town and watched late night movie which ended at 4am. went back to yewtee for breakfast at macD and reached home at 6am. thanks for spending your time with me. i appreciate it alot, dearest :)

and then saturday was shopping day with the best babe!

its been a great weekend for me. and i cant wait for more.

this coming week will be quite slack (i hope so). heeeeeee.
cos there wont be much of PT. no swimming, and best of all no PDT! yayness.
time check, 30 mins to book in!
gonna meet the ninja-geddons and shinobees at the gates of hell first.

till then people,
have a great weeek. stay coooool, eat ice. :)

you know i need you so.

saat terakhir.

2009-02-08T16:01:00.001+08:00

"O Allah, give me all the confidence and courage that i need
for everything that goes my way. O Allah, make me a stronger person.
O Allah, give me the patience to go through all this pain. Amin."

this weekend have been great.
east coast park on friday night. mount faber on saturday evening.
so need that for a peace of mind. :)

anyhow, sqd leader for the coming week.
8 km run on tuesday. drills on wednesday.
IPPT on friday. wish me the best of luck people.

till then, i'll be back. insyaallah.
i just cant wait for this week to be over.

have a great week ahead lovelies. xD

inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu, jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
hanya mampu ucapkan selamat jalan kasih.
satu jam saja ku telah bisa sayangi kamu di hatiku,
namun bagiku melupakanmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup.

GATES OF HELL

2009-02-01T14:32:00.004+08:00

who doesn't long for someone to hold.
who knows how to love you without being told.
somebody tell me why i'm on my own,
if there's a soulmate for everyone.

noons.

tomorrow marks the start of the second month.
pure hell is about to start. sigh.

damn.
soo not looking forward for the whole of this february.
with my injured knee and everything.
i sooo need it to recover soooooon. like farkin' soon.
if not everything will be badly affected.

gates of hell dah memanggil.
back to some serious disco disco.

and i missed my long curly wavy hair. period.
:'(

aren't memories supposed to fade? what's wrong with my heart?

SATURDAY

2009-01-24T23:23:00.004+08:00

hey!

its saturday night and i'm stucked at home.
damn should be out there enjoying the freedom i have while it lasts.
thanks for the fever, non stop hits cough and the flu bug.
its been there since last week.

since i'm not feeling well,
this is the only time that i can actually sit down at home and rest.
and its a good thing. dont you think so?
:)

its gonna be a long weekend. yayness!

nothing much to update though. but here's the long
overdue pictorials which took place on the 29th dec.
the x'mas party at west mall with the colleagues.
was definitely a blast.

p/s: click on the pics to enlarge.

only god knows how much i missed them.

gone those were the days. tsk tsk.

cant wait for the next 6 months to be over.

i seriously missed life, home and friends.

nevermind, must have faith.

anyways, the tagboard is up again.

so feel free to drop any comments yaw. teehee.

till then, happy cny to all my chinese friends.

have a great holiday people. meanwhile, take care.

stay cool eat ice. toodles! :)

if only i could find the answer to take it all away.

R1/09

2009-01-18T16:58:00.000+08:00

good noons.

its already sunday.
and gotta book in just in a while.

life's at camp sucks.
the food and the training suck big time.
but apart from that, is all good.
my squad's a bunch of great people.
especially the guys.
they know just how to make my day.

the next 3 months will be pure hell.
cause by the end of march, we gotta pass our ippt.
our physical defence tactics, life saving and some law tests.

5 days in camp is equals to 1 month in camp.
so 6 months will be like what?
and they can drag to 7 months if we dont complete
everything in time. farkk.

R4 will be passing out next thursday. damn.
member hot je dengar.

one of my friend said,
"kirekan kaw dah macam NS ah nie?"
and i replied, "a'ah seh dah macam NS, NS pon tak macam aku."
HAHAHA.

sigh.
5 whole days to the next book out.
and then it'll be a long weekend cause its CNY week.
thats something to look forward to. yayness.

this weekend have been a blast. :]
quality time spent with the lovelies.

east coast park. tuna sandwich. nasi goreng pedas.
macam paham nak jogging in the end tak jadi.
bicycle. coconut drink. orang main kat toilet. void deck.

late night walk at town
with someone that calls me starlet.
supper at macD. cold night walk home.
was seriously plain exhausted.
and somehow every single thing about
anything irritates me. sorry about that.
didnt mean to make you feel like as if i've never been sincere.
whatever it is, cant wait for the 31st! :]

time check: 1730 hours.
gotta polish those boots before i run late.

meanwhile, take care people.
stay cool eat ice. toodles! :]

you'll never know the way it tears me up inside not to see you.

NYE.

2008-12-31T13:45:00.003+08:00

its the new year eve.
what a way to start a new beginning.

fam's out of singapore. and i'm all alone.
doing 5-1am later. stock take.
gosh. its soo dreading.
and i really have no idea what time everything's gonna finish. sigh.

then gonna cabbed down to aunty's place at tiong bahru. gonna have supper before that.
so i wont go hungry in the middle of the night. lols.

anyways,
6th january is like 6 days away.
seriously dont know what to feel.
excited yet nervous at the same time. =S
really hope everything will be fine.
its gonna be 6 whole months baby.
6 months of hard work.
i'm gonna make sure i wont quit in between.

and im so goin to miss a whole lot of people.
and i know you know who you are.

till then, happy 2009 lovelies.
party hard. stay cool eat ice. :)

cause baby you're the only one.

6th jan

2008-12-29T01:47:00.004+08:00

6th january 2009.

a new beginning.
a new start.

:)

will be away for 6 months.
goodbye swensens. goodbye people.
goodbye my love. its beeen so long.

i'll be back though. au'revour.

XMAS

2008-12-24T01:16:00.002+08:00

tired.
seriously, i'm tired of work.
can i just not work anymore?

tom 12-11 again.
gonna hit the town after work.
its the eve of christmas baby!
lets get drunk. huhu.

nights. :)

DECEMBER.

2008-12-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

hi people. :]

the month of december is here yet again.
the last month of the year. what have i achieve through out the year? lol. what i can say. its been one hell of a year.

the best thing about december is there's sale everywhere. and i've been spending my money on unnecessary stuffs like every single day. urghh. really should stop all this spending. lols.

anyways last monday was my official last day at west mall. best thing, they didnt sabo. but the sad part was, i wont be working there anymore. dunoe how things will be at jurong pt. but i know it'll all be better in time. its the start of a new beginning. :]

life's been great thus far.
but gotta prepare for next week. gonna chiong all the way. dont know when's the next off day though. but nevermind, later end month pay confirm bombbb. and thats somethin to look forward to. woooo!

oh. gotta hit the sack soon. tom 9-6 again.

and before i go, here's the long updated pictorials during the last stock take at wm.

also the nisa's birthday celebration at al-majlis with the camelot people and nizal. will have to wait for them to send the rest of the pics though.

till then, have a great weekend people.
stay cool eat ice. :]

when a heart breaks, it dont breakeven.

what about now?

2008-11-28T02:09:00.002+08:00

<3

shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading.
from all the things that we are but are not saying.
can we see beyond the scars and make it to the dawn?

what if you're making me all that i was meant to be? what if our love had never went away? what if it's lost behind words we could never find?

before its too late, what about now?

A7X PICTOS

2008-11-03T23:11:00.001+08:00

hey people!

here's the pictorials for the A7X concert which was held at Max Pavillion on the 24th.
mucho gracias for the peeeeeeks people. :]

ROCK ON! \m/

anyhow, if youre wondering how i'm doing.

my life is fcked up now. everythings fcked up.

dont bother to ask why.

till then cheerios!

i gave you everything i had to give. now i'm so empty cause you had your fill. you took the life from my face. all that i wanted was you by my side. but you walked in front of me all the while. thank you baby cause you made me tough. and now i go on my own way. i just dont like this feeling anymore.

RAYA 2008.

2008-10-27T00:02:00.001+08:00

hello people! :)

k as promised.
here's the pictorials for this year's hari raya outing with the rgt peeps.
not much peeks cause i left halfway. anyhoos, it was still fun. :)

:)))

apart from all that, life's been good.

just that now abit sick. supposed to werk 3-11 today.

but skipped that. felt much better now.

anyhow, went to a7x concert on friday.

the crowd and the moshing pit was fuckin crazy.

moshed like fuck.

had a great fall and lost my right shoe. ahah.

but it was fun. met alot of people tooo.

will post the pics once i got them.

rock on people! \m/

as for now, i dont feel like doing anything.

i dont feel like working anymore.

i just wanna do nothing.

oh God, give me the strength to make me move on.

till then, cheerios!

the distance between us makes it so hard to stay.

AVENGED SEVENFOLD.

2008-10-19T03:18:00.001+08:00

time now is 3am.
gosh cant sleep for whatever reasons. so decided to blog abit. :)

anyways last few days, swensens had chalet. like finally after months of saving up the tips money. lols. k we had it at the chevrons. it was quite a blast. k maybe not really. hahah.

the first night was the best. just imagine i didnt sleep for more than 40 hours. power to the people sia. went there at around 12am. thon with rin, syafiq, dinie, hasraf, has and a few others. then bbqed till quite late. then went home the next morning before goin to work at 9. was zombiee-ing the whole time at werk. after werk went there again with rin. then after a while went home cause cant take it anymore. was damn shaggedd. imagine i survived by drinking 3 cans of redbull. redbull gives you wings. lol.

the chalet pics will be up soon. quite lazy to upload. hahah.

tom's finally my off day after like werkin for 6 days straight. gosh i really need a break. like seriously. i sooo need to sleep. but will be meetin sayang for awhile. yayness! cant wait. :)

k just now went to meet nadiah after werk to do abit of shopping. lols. kecoh!

and and i cant soooooo wait for this! you know what? jengjengjeng!

i'm soo going for AVENGED SEVENFOLD!! wooohhhooo! 24th faster come. :))

and here's some of the pics that i had with nadiah. like after sooo long. heeee.

P/S:
to that particular someone, i cant deny that i've changed. and i hope you know the reason why. i just cant be bothered with what people wanna say or think. it doesnt matter anymore. we had so much good memories together but now, to me its just another distant memory. from the bottom of my heart, i'm sorry. didnt mean to. you can blame me all you want.

kk. next post will be about raye. till then lovelies, stay cool eat ice! :))

i dont know why but without you its hard to survive.

BACK!

2008-10-09T23:47:00.001+08:00

hey lovelies!

k im back from the hiatus. like finally eh. so where shall i start?

okay. raya's been a blast, NOT! lol. nothing much la actually. every year the same old thing. hari raya semakin berbuah wajah. and tomorrow marks the 10th day of raya, a day somehow my life changed a year ago. apart from all that, i cant wait for this sunday's raya outing with the boopies and secondary sch mates. weeehhhoooww! confirm happening. :) promise will update about it the next post yaww.

besides raya, life's been okay. everyday go work go home sleep go work again kind of routine. boring la seh. seriously aku macam takde life. work also have been good thus far. just that abit disturbed when they say i'll be transferring out to another place soon. this has yet to be confirmed, but i just dont want it to ever happen. i just cant bear to leave the place where good and bad memories i've been through and all the friends i've made. but then again i really dont have a choice, if i have to go then i'll leave with a heavy heart. damn.

and within this short period of time, i broke some hearts and i got my heart broken. again and again. love hurts so much. dont you think so?

anyways last monday had BFH course and i passsed! baik ke pe. and after that course, met Rin. just walked and hang out together and talked alot. in short, it was a fun day.

p/s: rin aku tau kaw bace blog aku, i sooooo need that tagg! lols.

k before i go here's the pictorials.

till the next post people. take care yaw.
stay cool eat ice! :))

i love you but i'm letting go.

HIATUS!

2008-09-30T02:52:00.001+08:00

hey people!

i'll be on Hiatus till god knows when.
no worries, i'll be back sooon.

and oh before i forget.
this goes out to the september babies.
happy 21st birthday to raf.
happy 20th birthday to lynn, sarlina and nurlina.
have a great birthday k my bitches! yeay.
sorry didnt wish by msg, bill kena cut ah. lols.

till then,
wanna wish selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all my muslim friends. enjoy enjoy selalu okay!
:)

i thought i'd never get through, i got over you.

SUPP!

2008-09-07T01:50:00.001+08:00

heyyy yaw!

first of all, this goes out to all my muslim friends.
happy ramadhan people. puase, jangan tak puase hokay! :)

the month of september is finally here.
a day which i've been looking forward to.
oh well maybe not really looking forward to la. but somehow was abit excited cause its the start of something new. hmmm yeah.

so on the 1st september, i was promoted to supervisor at work. lol. okay maybe not really a big deal laa. but the main thing is, this is my first fulltime job ever! haha. believe it or not.

i was hoping everything will turn out well. and this is a decision that i never wanna regret. maybe its too early to say. but i think i cannot cope. see how fickled am i. damn. k nevermind just give myself abit more time. i know it'll all be good.

work's getting tiring each single day. with the responsibilites that i'm holding on to, the pressure and expectations. maybe its the parts and parcels of being a superior. and the thing which i still havent gain from people is respect. k this may be very hard, but hey i tried my very best. i know i dont really deserve all the respect, but i just want them to know whatever that i do its my job and i have to do it. never thought i'd be sooo stressed out like now. haiz.

apart from all that, my left eye got some infection i think. haish. one after another. :(

and most importantly, I MISS LIFE! :(

see how depressed i am. kill me people!

if i should be so bold, i’d ask you to hold my heart in your hand.

A LONELY SEPTEMBER

2008-08-30T12:51:00.004+08:00

hey all.

sorry for the lack of updates.
will be back with loads of stories to tell, promise.

anyways,

its finally the end of august.
the lonely september is coming.
it also marked the starting of the fasting month.
hopefully i can make it the whole of one month.

apart from that, september is also the start of something new. :)
insyaallah, i'll be fine.
if youre wondering what its all about, stay tune for the next post!

gotta meet the best bgff, haryati in a while. we gonna hit the town for shopping! woohhoo!

till then, have a great weekend ever! :)

i give you my heart, you break it apart
and leave me sad.

HURT

2008-08-24T01:46:00.003+08:00

i love you beyond the reason why.
i love you so much it hurts.

:(

one week to go to pure hell.

fly away far away.

20th.

2008-08-09T14:37:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings! :)

on wednesday, aug 6th. was yani's 20th!
happy birthday woman!
not forgetting, happy 19th to mai toot. :)

okay back on weds. raf and i planned this like one month ago. so on that day we rent a fiat punto car. k first went to cck to get the car. and then to eunos to take that yani. went to tampines mall to get stuffs at famous amos. then to swensens to dine in and to visit that bitch, regina.

afterwhich we had no plans and then went to yishun dam to pass time. and then ard 5.30 we make our move to amk to get waffle. then went to nyp to take erika. nak orang ambek kat skola jer! manje! k then went to chachos for dinner. afterwhich to tanjung rhu for birthday song session. lepas tuh kecoh gi simpang bedok beli makan. then we got lost at tampines sebab nak ambek fizah gemok. then after that we all headed home. shagged and sleepy.

that day was a blast la seh. kecoh. although ade cock up sikit. tapi touching. :) i hope you had an unforgettable 20th birthday, yani. yang penting happy happy k! :))

this will be the pictorials. will be back for updates on the 7th soon. take care people. have a great weekend and happy holiday! and oh, happy national day to all. i love singapore!

stay cool, eat ice. :)

candid.

raf and yani.

:)

calamari.

yani, the birthday woman!

malu malu cat moments. haha.

raf and yani.

fiat punto.

tanjung rhu.

erika p.

<3

<3

picture perfect! :)

terlalu indah setiap detik bersama.

LOVELOVELOVE

2008-08-08T01:23:00.003+08:00

<3 if i could reach up and hold a star for everytime you made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand. :))

i love the sun for days, the moon for nights
and you forever.

TEENAGE ICON.

2008-07-31T00:43:00.001+08:00

DAMN!

i got pissed off first thing in the morning. nabey. dont know which stray cat peeeee-ed at my adidas slippers. then i had to wash everything and somehow i was quite late for work. had work 12-3 just now. haha. petetek right. apart from the surprise visit from the night safari's ex colleague jeslyn and azizah, werk was just normal. yeah.

after work, met raf at westmall's coffeebean. and then we slacked quite a while to search for rental of car. and she finally got it. baik per. k then went to amk hub to get some stuffs and met someone there. we had dinner at banquet. and then we headed our separate ways.
:)

thats it for today.

anyways the month of august gonna be quite a busy one. heh. with lots if happenings to look forward to. wooohhhooo! seriously cant wait.

anyhow last saturday, on the 26th. went to heeren to catch elango's teenage icon heats. met fahmy and friends there. its quite sad that he didnt make it to the next round. but hey you did your very best okay. and i'm proud of you, elango. :) and then the bgff walked all the way from paragon to esplanade hoping to catch the fireworks. but sadly no fireworks. cheat my feelings. so we just had take away longjohn and slacked at marina steps. it was a nice long day. :)

before i go, here's the pictorials.

mariah pharell.

fahmy the farmer.

the judges.

the gerls.

them.

contestants from grp A.

lee. elango. fahmy.

fahmy and me.

muke tak perlu eh fahmy.

eyecandy, elango kumar.

:)

so sick.

hansen. fahmy. lee.

BGFF!

them with elango.

brotherly love.

:)))

BGFF!

till then people. take care dont take drugs. stay cool eat ice. take care! :))

one thought of you is all i need to leave the rest of the world behind.

MUHD YUSRI

2008-07-21T01:22:00.001+08:00

only two words to describe my feelings at this point of time. awfully low. :'(

for some reasons,
i just cant take my mind of you.

why do i have to see your face again?
when all i wanna do is to forget everything about you. about us. and the memories we once shared.

deep down,
although how much i deny it.
i still love you, muhammad yusri. yes i do.

and i know we can never be together again.
never ever be. and that hurts the most.
and i didnt know loving you can bring me to so much of despair.

please God, i need to get through this.
give me the strength to move on.

.

but on a brighter note,
nadiah came right at my doorsteps to suprise me a ice blended drink which she made it herself from starbucks. thanks love! and somehow that cheered me up abit. :)
thanks for everything kay. i really appreciate it.

anyways the past weeks have been great.
and i hope to have more of it in weeks to come. cant wait for the 26th!

till then lovelies. good night.

forever in my heart with this love i'll always keep.

ONCE AGAIN

2008-07-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

each time i clear my thoughts of you
and i think that i'm doing fine
someone goes and speak your name
and once again you're on my mind.

each time i realize my life's much better
and i think that i couldn't ask for more
i always dream of you and me together
and once again the tears fall to the floor.

each night i lay my head to rest
i thank God above
but it reminds me of when i prayed for you
and once again i'm missing your love.

each day that ends i count my blessings
and i know that i'll make it through
i'm reminded of all that i once had
and once again i'm thinking of you.

each song i hear on the radio
i'll sing along to it for awhile
and then i remember it was "our song"
and once again i lose my smile.

each time i think my heart is healed
and it's time to let another in
i remember all the love we shared
and i'm loving you once again.

so each time i clear my thoughts of you
and i think that i'm doing fine
i know i'm only lying to myself
once again i wish you were mine.

and i wonder if i ever get to see your face again.

CAMEROID.

2008-07-15T15:13:00.006+08:00

hello people!

yeap. its been a long time.
didnt have the time to blog actually.

there's so much happenings.
and i'm glad to say everything's goin smooth sailing. :)
although there's bumpy abit here and there.

anyways wont be updating much. will end the post with the pictorials that happened 2 days ago. me and nadiah didnt have anything to do. and we camwhored.

k take care all. have a great week. :)

as i looked into the blue sky no more tears falling from my eyes. you're not mine anymore.

JUNE PICTORIALS

2008-06-29T02:35:00.003+08:00

heyy yawwww! :)

okay as promised, here's the update and also the pictorials.

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a small meet up with the sec school girls. had dinner at al azhar. i thought it was just a small gathering over dinner. i didnt know they planned a belated birthday for me. awwwww. so sweet of them. almost broke into tears. but didnt, paisey laa. heh. and then sarlina baked me a brownie. soo nice. thanks gerls for remembering my special day! love ya'll alot alot. and then after dinner we just hang around and took lots of peeks. k next outing will be johor and paintball i guess. gonna have lots of fun. cant wait! :)

the brownie!

sarlina the baker. and the makcik of the day. muke takmu fierce k.

the twins, sarlina and nurlina.

the mentels.

muke tak perlu k dinah.

shasha.

mulot maintain beb.

and then this is some random pics with the BGFF.

the day we all wore black and also nadiah's virgin M18 movie, sex in the city. haha kenz.

nasi ayam penyet at lucky plaza.

the day we all wore mary (red). haha.

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it was riding day. with rafhanah! ehehe. we went to jurong hill. kent ridge park. mad jack. tanjung rhu. and lastly kallang. a day well spent. :)

jurong hill.

kent ridge park.

tanjung rhu.

and then had sleepovers with the BGFF. no peeks will be put up sebab satu satu muke mintak kene smack that. so that'll only be within the three of us.

yeah, so thats about it. i had a smashing juneeee. hope yours too. gotta hit the sack now. tom 1-9. and then it'll be 30th june. woooo. :)

p/s: anyways 9 days is a long time ehh uuu. will miss you alot alot.

take care people. have a great weekend. cheerios! :))

if i had the whole world to write on to express how much i love you, it wouldn't all fit.

9 DAYS.

2008-06-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

hey people.

okay its been q a long time the last time i update.
been super duperly busy.

the whole of last week was supposed to be more of a stay at home kindda thing.
but actually the whole week was more of going out and have fun. but somehow it made me occupied. which is good. at least i dont think about unnecessary stuffs.

i had lots of happenings which i'll update sooon. so stay tune for the next update. wanna keep this post as short as possible. :)

anyways i requested for 9 off days straight from swensens. for some reasons i wanna give myself time out from there. and after 9 days, i had work just now. 5-11. i dont know why but it feels so different. soo different. not the people there, but me. i guess i really cant work there anymore. for the past 2 years swensens is like my second home. but today i didnt feel it anymore. i wonder why. :( let time will tell.

okay. taknak sad sad la.

i'm soooo looking forward for the 30th. cause its pay day. and also... jengjengjeng. its the start of something new. heeee.

till then. cheerios! :))

kerana mu kasih, ku rela kau pergi.

2008-06-17T15:36:00.003+08:00

loss has always been a part of my journey.
but it also taught me what was precious.

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your first reaction be?
cry. and cry and cry.

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
travel around the world and take great pictures.

#3 If you win $1 million, what would you do?
used it to travel around the world. with the people i love.

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
curious. curiosity kills the cat.

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
someone's gentleman enough. accept me for who i am and not for who he want me to be. cute. someone that i can imagine being with till the end.

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone, definitely.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
i can wait. but sometimes things are just not meant to be.

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
erm wait?

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
probably.

#10 Are you in love or being loved now?
both i guess.

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
having a good job. married to someone i'm deeply in love with. probably already have a child? and hopefully living life to the fullest.

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
my parents. friends. and of course the loved ones.

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
he's funny.

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
single and rich. love's not everything. money yes. hahaha.

#15 What's the first thing you do every morning?
check hp. go toilet. open fridge. drink water. then sleep again.

#16 Would you give your all in a relationship?
yeap.

#17 If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
i dont know. i'm q shy.

#18 What type of friends do you like?
the ones that can make me happy and laugh and laugh and laugh. and of course being there when i needed them the most.

#19 What type of friends do you dislike?
the one that stabbed you from the back.

#20 What would you name your children in future? (Give 1 boy, 1 girl)
for a girl, maybe agnes monica. and for a boy maybe irwansyah. hahaha. so random.

ku akur dengan kehendak tuhan.

EOS

2008-06-12T00:46:00.005+08:00

hello lovelies!

as promised here's the updates that i've been wanting to update but i havent got the time yet. so like finally? hehe. okay. =)))

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it was bugs day! went to meet at dhoby ghaut at around 4. was a little late. but luckily she got her psp to make her occupied. went to clarke quay. and then we took pics near the river before we headed to the coffee club to get some drinks. and then took train to causeway point to meet up the boys. we had dinner at swensens. cause we missed lihui badly. :( and then after dinner was kungfu panda movie. cute movie. after movie, slacked with shadiq and lihui until about 1am.

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the outing with the BFF(bestfriendsforever). had work 12-5 at first. begum was soo excited that she kept doing countdown. tak sabar nampak. after work, met kachang at west mall. went to kfc cos i was damn hungry. and then off to khatib, bottle tree park. met faris along the way. and then we camwhored! like until 9plus or wad? then trained to yishun to get some stuffs at northpoint. and back to yew tee. bought macD and durian and as usual lepak at the skate park. k best. next time bleh buat lagi. love you all girlfriends! :))

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off day! nothing much. went to meet the best bf, nizal at west mall. had dinner at mos burger and then we basically just lepak. afterwhich he wanted to meet shadiq soo much. and then we headed home by last train. kene ambek tindakkan niee! (inside joke) heeeee.

4 days left and then i'm gonna have one week break from work! i think i really need it lahhh. so next week i'll be free most of the days. at the same time gonna do some soul searching. and i hope i'll find what i really need. what i really want and what i really wanna do.

its about time for me to learn to let go of things and accept reality eventhough at times reality sucks. i guess this is a lesson for me to learn. learn from my mistakes and at the same time not to repeat it again. i must make it happen. insyaallah.

till then lovelies. stay cool, eat ice. dont take drugs. =)

have a great week yawww! au'revoir.

i don't know why i'm so confused.

SADNESS

2008-06-07T01:25:00.003+08:00

i'm at my lowest point now.

i cant believe that i actually broke down and cried at work yesterday.
what the hell was i thinking marn.

i'm just tired of crying.
having to dry the tears every now and then.
i hope i can pick myself up in time to come.

anyways this goes out especially to the colleagues who's been extra concern.
thanks for everything k. :)
and in particular to jason and haryati. thanks for all the meaningful words. i really appreaciate whatever you people said. it made me alot feel better in a way. :)

despite the bad times, i managed to squeeze my time by spending with the lovelies. which i will update later on. thanks for saving my day lovelies! lovelove!

till then have a good weekend all. cheerios!

if love is about getting hurt all the time, i'd rather be alone.

OOOH BABY!

2008-06-03T22:54:00.004+08:00

wooooo!

guess what?
i've gotten a new baby.

.

its canon EOS 400D.
and i'm sooo in love with it. :))

mucho gracias!

MAYMORIES.

2008-05-27T21:21:00.004+08:00

MAY-mories.

hey yaww!
its been sooo long since the last time i got a proper update.
and because of that, i'm gonna squeeze all the happenings for the month of may in this one post. dont worry cause it wont be wordy. i'll let the pictorials do the talking aye.

120508.
swensens have yet another gathering. this time at al-azhar bukit timah. it was quite fun cause finally get to meet people whom i havent met for sucha long time. like huihsia, maam lihui. yummy foods, great people and everything. it was yet a memorable one. :)

170508.
it was bugs 20th mini birthday celebration. and we had it at singapore botanical garden. yeap thats right. this time is with the usual bunch. shadiq erika jason billy and of course the birthday gerl herself, peiern. had a hard time preparing and planning at first. haha. we had cupcakes and some noodles there. and then we played some games and abit of camwhoring. i dont know if its a great one but hey i did my best to plan! its not easy to be the planner you know. anywoos, i hope you people enjoyed yeah!

200508

the day i turned 20. heeee. so young yet so old. not forgetting abdul hafiz who turns 21 and kamal who turns 19 on that day too. happy birthday korang!! okay. my birthday was okay. celebrated with the two special people on my life. the bf and of course the bff (bestfriendforever!) thanks for everything. love them to bits. and of course thanks for all the gifts, birthday cards, birthday wishes thru sms, friendster msg/comments, msn. you know who you are. i'm blessed! :) p/s: sorry no pics. heh.

220508

went to town with nadkachang. its been so long since we last met. and of course there were so much to catch up. we both wear all black on that day and heels. heh. first we went to far east to get my shoe exchanged. and then lunch at ljs. then to marriot hotel for an interview. then walked around town and entered the house of condom (adult toys). hahah! and then slacked at starbucks paragon. afterwhich off to j.east to meet up with the best babe, maisarah. went to watch congkak. heh. takot nampak takot nampak. slacked, smoke smoke and smoke and do abit of catching up before we parted ways at around 11. maiii, bile bile jumpe lagi kayy! loveyou gf! :)

okay. i'm done! tangan penat nieee. macam paham.

shall update again when the time comes.

till then lovelies. take care yaww. have a great week.

stay cool. eat ice. hahah. au'revoir. :)

my heart is damaged.

TEN SICKNESS OF THE HEART

2008-05-26T00:38:00.009+08:00

Ten Sicknesses of The Heart.

1. You believe in the existance of Allah Ta'ala, but you do not fulfil his commands.

2. You say you love the Holy Prophet Mohammed (Sallallahu 'alahi wasallam), but you do not follow his sunnah (ie, his example).

3. You Read The Qur'an but you do not put it into practice.

4. You enjoy all the benefits from Allah Ta'ala, but you are not grateful to him.

5. You acknowledge Shaytan as your enemy, but you do not go against him.

6. You want to enter paradise, but you do not work for it.

7. You do not want to be thrown into hell-fire, but you do not try to get away (ie, do good deeds).

8. You believe that every living-thing will face death, but you do not prepare for it.

9. You gossip and find faults in others, but you forgot your own faults and mistakes.

10. You bury the dead, but you do not take a lesson from it.

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soo true aint it? thanks haniz.
this post of yours made me realised that life is short.
we should enjoy every moment of it. but at the same time, we should not forget our creator.

mari sama-sama bertaubat kawan kawan ku. :))

Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi.
Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimii.

Tuhanku aku tidak layak untuk syurgaMu. tetapi aku tidak pula sanggup menanggung seksa nerakaMu, dari itu kurniakanlah ampunan kepadaku ampunkanlah dosaku sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun dosa-dosa besar.

our love is like the wind, i can't see it but i can feel it.

BRB!

2008-05-23T01:32:00.003+08:00

heyy people.

pardon me with the lack of updates.
been super duper busy bee lately.
promise will be back with lots of stories and pictorials to share.

so stay tune aye! :))

i think i'm moving on but i go nowhere.

2008-05-17T23:20:00.003+08:00

TWENTIETH!

happy 20th to my dearest little miss sunshine,
BIG BUGS! :))

thousand of apologies for the times i made you mad or sad.
i know i'm no good.

but you should know one thing,
we'll always be bugs.
till the sun no longer shine,
till the poets run out of rhyme,
till the mountains crumble to the sea,
till the river all runs dry,
till the stars fall from the sky.
and in other words, till eternity.

no matter how distant we get, the heart is all that matters.
i cant always be there for you 24/7,
but i'll try to be always there.
:))

hope your birthday will be a blast.
all the love. xoxo.

it feels like you've always been forever a part of me.

QUIZ.

2008-05-15T01:32:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE.

was bored. and so decided to bloghop. and this is what i found at dinah's blog. its a survey kinda thang about yourself. so gave it a try and this is the results.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

and i think its soooo true. heee.
dont you think so?? ahahhas.

and dyndynamite,
i think the boopies should really meet up soooon.
miss korangs sumer.

anyhoos, its 5 days left.
if you know what i meant. :))

so long people, have a great night!

say goodbye and fly away.

LABOUR DAY

2008-05-01T14:17:00.004+08:00

MAY!

wooohhhooo!
its the month of may baby! its the favourite month of the year!
hahaha. why? go figure!

anyways life's been great. now that you're back. heeee.

k. nothing much to update. here's last sunday's peeks. :)
have a great weekend lovelies!

p/s:
happy 2nd month baby! heeee. (:
happy 19th birthday razmi baby!

i fake a smile so he wont see.

GO AWAY

2008-04-26T00:36:00.001+08:00

.GO AWAY.

PLEASE
DONT
BOTHER
ME
AT
THIS
TIME.

BY
ASKING
ME
STUPID
QUESTION
CAUSE
I'M
FUCKING
PISSED!

GET
A
LIFE
LOSER!

TEARS

2008-04-18T23:48:00.002+08:00

.

Whenever i think of you
I see my world from the truth
Because you're gone away from me
And i'll never get to see you

I can't hear you in my sleep
I can't see you in my dreams
It's just a memory that's left back there
And we'll never ever be

If only I could
There's only one thing I would do
That's to say, I love you
And I will always dream of you
With tears in my eye
Where memories messed in my heart

If only there is
Just a chance for one kiss
Can you please forgive me
It's a choice I have to make
With tears in my eye
Where memories messed in my heart

If only I could turn the time
I will try my best to turn back time
To all the things that I've done
And all my feelings stucked inside

I will shower u with love
You will be watch from above
Because you're gone forever
All I can do now is remember

.iloveyou.i really do.

MAPAU.

2008-04-15T01:13:00.004+08:00

.MAPAU.

Who would have thought the time we had together was indeed short but the impact that we had was a great one?

We never thought we'd be as close as we are now.

But why must all good things come to an end?

No more late night lepaks till the last train.
No more waiting of one another at the usual stairs we always lepak.
No more sharing of mapaus.
No more skate park.
No more of the late night supper at macD.
No more going to west mall to waste our time.
No more lepak at the overhead bridge at 2am and take pics by the side of the road and ketawe kuat kuat sampai kene marah.
No more sending people at their doorstep when they're not well.

And the list goes on...

But most importantly we enjoy each other's company. Thats how the bond between us grew. And we really hope we'll have more upcoming days to spend together.

Nadiah. Syafiq. Yunus. Mariah.
We may not always be together, but the memories we had will always be in each of our hearts. (: dont ever change.

MAPAU GO GO AGOGO!

P/S: alamak Nad! looks like tak menjadi seh impian nak kahwin same same kat yew tee park. heheh. feeling feeling nampak. =P

ESCAPADE!

2008-04-13T01:03:00.003+08:00

.ESCAPADE.

Last sunday on the 6th.
went to Escape Theme Park with the people.

4 rounds of that i-dont-know-whats-it-called.
3 rounds of go-kart.
3 rounds of viking.
2 rounds of the inverter.
and a few others.

after Escape was slacking at Pasir Ris beach to enjoy the sea breeze and also the sunset. afterwhich it was dinner at Swensens, White Sands.

K best. Lain kali boleh buat lagi. =)

dont wanna go further into details.
so let the peektures do the talking aye.

anyhow, I MISS THESE PEOPLE BADLY!! really hope we can gather soon.

MAPAU IS LOVEED!

take me away to better days.

2008-04-09T12:36:00.004+08:00

GOODNESS GRACIOUS.
check this out people.

whats really happening to kids these days?

LOST.

2008-04-07T00:48:00.001+08:00

WHERE'D I GO?

sitting near the window.
staring at the stars above.

I wonder to myself.
what have I done?
what have I achieve in my almost 20 yrs of my life?

no good 'O' levels results.
no ITE cert.
and I still havent got a stable job to plan my future.

in other words, NOTHING!

what will I be in 5 years time?

the thing which I regret the most was,
spending almost two whole years in ITE Dover doing some stupid course which in the end I failed and thus, quit school.
wasted. I know. but what can I do?
gotta start afresh.

if you expect this to be a happy entry then you're wrong.
I dont know where's the MARIAH been to.

she's lost. period.

LESSON LEARNT

2008-04-04T01:54:00.003+08:00

APRIL'S FOOL.

when you don't know the full story, you tend to judge and your tone comes forward as accusing. and that somehow hurts someone else right? i think i too should start being more sensitive. i should really consider about other people feelings rather than care soo much about my feelings. so.
LESSON LEARNT.

try not to judge people too fast. you may not know that the person that you thought you hate the most is the person that you ended up trusting the most. again. i should not judge people based on their looks. cause looks is decieving. and again... LESSON LEARNT.

anyhoos, these few days been a little pressure for me. things just dont go the way its supposed to be. but on a brighter note, there's something to look forward to this sunday. wooohhhoo! cant wait. really hope it'll be a blast.

and i shall update the long overdue pictorials when i feel like to. and the flu bug is really now bugging me again. arggghhh! hate block nose.
bukan block yunos kat msn eh selenger. =pPp

&& ~~I MISS YOU~~ BIE! =))

till then, good night earthlings!

I'm standing on the edge and I dont know what else to give.

BREATHLESS.

2008-03-23T02:13:00.005+08:00

BREATHLESS.

if our love was a fairy tale,
I would charge in and rescue you .
On a yacht baby we would sail,
to an island where we’d say I do .

and if our love was a story book,
we would meet on the very first page .
the last chapter would be about
how I’m thankful for the life we’ve made.

:)))))
ily, yes I do.

i still cant believe that you're mine.

10,000 BC.

2008-03-15T14:50:00.001+08:00

10,000 BC!

let me blog about friday the 14th. one of the kecoh-est days ever. (:

initially nadiah and I were supposed to go to oriental hotel for an interview. but at the last minute, nad called and said we had to send our resume online first before they will arrange an interview for us if we get shortlisted. pandai eh kaw. aku dah siap pastuh tak jadi. but then its ok.

then we had no plans. so met her at yew tee with syafiq at around 2. and then we left to vivo without syafiq to meet up with haryati begum and boify. bought tickets for 10.000 BC scho at 4.45pm. since we had plenty of time, we went to the chicken rice shop for lunch. then before the movie, mapau and took some pics. and toilet intervals.

anyways 10,000 BC rawks my pink panty! ahahaha. its a must watch people! the show very the suspense, thrilling, and also some sad parts. aku ngan nadiah dah feeling2 seh kat wayang. and then the hero, STEVEN STRAIT is soooooooooo hot!! check him out yaw. he beat my no. 1 pharell williams. hot stuff la sey! woooo! ahahhas. k mariah mepeks.

after the movie, we went to take pics again. punyerla kecoh tahap maximo. and then we went separate ways at around 7 or so. took 61 to bb with nad. then met up with nizal. lepaklepak. old chang kee. sweet talk. mcflurry. hot fudge sundae. rokiahs. mapaus. and then we waited until the swensens people closing. and then we lepak awhile until midnight. pastuh kat train pon kecoh nak amek gambar. ahahhas. k best. laen kali boleh buat lagi.

today working at 4. enjoy the pictorials baybeh. have a great weekend (:

nadiah and me; reflections.

nad and me.

me and begum.

haryati kangkang macam apek siak.

movie!

feelingfeeling 10,000BC!

feeling-feeling hindustan la pulak.

the fantastic four. macam p!

the captions say it all.

bestfriend. (:

alamak. nad interframe ah.

wherever you go, your heart walks with me.

STRESS!

2008-03-10T22:58:00.003+08:00

HAIZ.

I'm super stressed up right now for the fact that I still havent got my full time job until now.

='((

KL. FAREWELL.

2008-03-06T12:21:00.003+08:00

WHEN YOU LEAVE,
I'M INCONSOLABLE.

heyheyhey! i'm back. sorry for the lack of updates. been really busy. anyways last week was fine. so lets start from monday okay.

on monday. had to work 3-11pm. nothing much before werk. had to do runner. and then seperti biase kalau aku buat runner je ade je bende terjadi. complain and gadoh. haha. aku sesungguhnyer memang tak boleh buat runner. abeh pastuh after werk abit sad ah sebab ade misunderstanding sikit. but then was quite happy cause i received an sms from this company and were told to go for an interview. abeh malam tu i dont know whats on my mind. and i cant sleep the whole night. baik kepe.

then the next day. on tuesday had to work 9-5pm. wahseyyy. bethol punyer penat la seh. gi keje muke macam zombie. aku rase zombie pon lagi bagos. ahahahs. nothing much la. did fountain. after werk, went home with maam nana. before that went to tom&stefanie to accompany her. then saw faris!! woohhoo! lame sey tak jumpe. missedmissed. kk. then went home. sorry mapau sebab aku bueh tak lepak ngan korang. =pPp

on weds. work 1-6pm. before werk went to ngee ann city at 9.30am for the interview. afterwhich it was still quite early, so i decided to go home first. had lunch and then off to work. after werk, ate at the back door and then went to causeway civic center with faizah to get her medical results. and then lepak a while before went to popular to get my wrapping paper. and then home!

okay on thursday was the last day i get to work with ma'am nana. went out to yew tee at 10am to meet syaira to pass me the cupcakes that i ordered. and then had to wait for nearly 45mins cause apparently both of us were waiting at two diff place. luckily she took bus when she wanted to go home. heh. then met at the next bus stop at unity sec there. then went home to get ready. pastuh gi marsiling mrt to meet maam nana. supposed to meet at 11.45 but i was late. reached at 12pm! heh. aftter she put the stuffs that i passed her at home, we went to causeway point for lunch! guess where we had our lunch? swensens. ahaha. she blanjer me. thanks alot. ((: afterhwich we still had alot of time before work. we reached west mall around 2 i think. and then just walked around to see some stuffs. work 3-11pm that day. nothing much. fountain again. abeh i keep on doing countdown seh to the hours left that i had with maam nana. wahseyy. aku senyumsenyum ketaweketawe all the way. tapi only God knows how sad i was. (pasrah la pulak. hahaha.) and then after werk, took train to marsiling with her. yeaps.

friday was KL. reached KL at around 5pm. check in to the hotel then meet sis and bro in law as they reached there much earlier than us. and then after changing and whatever that is needed to be done. we went to berjaya times square to catch the 3D movie; haunted castle. one work merepek! hahah. but the effects cool la seh. like as though we're in the movie. afetr the movie, it was raining damn heavily. and then we walked to sungei wang plaza to have our dinner. we had kebab! and then after dinner, walked around at bukit bintang and had my all time fave gellatisimo. heh. and then reached hotel and knock off. penat la seyyy.

saturday was shopping day. breakfast at the hotel. and then we started our day first by going to lot 10. and then central market. and last was petaling street. we end our shopping at around 5 cos we had dinner at the hotel at 8pm. abeh balik hotel tukar baju lawa lawa then turun untuk dinner. wahseh feeling feeling orang kaye sey. then makan makan sampai kembong. pastuh we just sit around at the lounge. yeaps.

sunday. check out at 12pm. then went back to singapore. we had lunch and abit of last minute shopping intervals. reached singapore at around 6plus. then met nadiah at yewtee at 7pm and we went to causeway point to get stuffs for maam nana. then had dinner at pastamania. then kite lepak kat luar yang ade banyak ABR until 10 before we went off to west mall. then biler sampai jer nampak maam nana bau busok. haha. kene sabo. got CF, cream and some other stuffs. geli nyer. and then aku pon kene. elak nyer elak. thanks ah eh. and then after that peiern helped her with the wash up. and then it was time for the cake, gifts exchange. then danny made a huge card and there were lots of pics in it. and then thats where we all placed our sweet little note there. yups. and then makan ice cream. went out at around 1215am.

all of them went back by cab. seperi biase, nad nose fiq and me lepak. we lepak at this overhead bridge near to west mall. took loads of pics. kat road la ape la. and then we finally reached home at 2.30am. pastuh sempat lagi msn eh bebual merepek. nad, muke kaw stop it eh. ahahas.

and then on monday. which is 3 days ago. met nad again at 1. went to causeway point to meet faizah. then went to nyp teman nad amek withdrawal form. then went to ssdc to enrol car licensce. then went to bukit timah to have our dinner at al-azhar. lepas tuh sumer dah penat satu satu muker macam tempeh basi so we took bus home.

tuesday. 9-5pm. nothing much at work. after werk went to eat at BK with faizah. and then went to IMM at around 8 to meet maam nana. then teman her to queensway to get some stuffs for her hubby's birthday. and then we waited almost an hour just to get cab home. finally due due dah binget then we called for cab. then took cab to marsiling. then took train back home. thanks for everything maam nana! (:

wednesday. off day. slept whole day. but had makan, shower smoke and toilet break intervals though. heh.

as for today. work 3-10pm. wooohhhooo! no need do closing. (kening naik naik.) HAHAHA. gotta rush need to meet someone to pass some stuffs. heh.

tomorrow will be bugs day. been soooo long. (: and then saturday 12-11pm. sunday 11-5pm. sorrryyy people cant go to your chalet at changi on saturday. really cant make it. thousands of apologies.

niwaes before i go, here's the pictorials. for full album, can visit my multiply. take care lovelies and have a greet week yawww! =))

bro and me.

sape lagi, mariah pharell.

the 3D movie, must wear this specs for the special effects.

me and kakak.

me and bro otw to petaling street.

happy belated pantat!

we really got nothing to do.

sis and bro in law.

the superstar has left KL!! heheh.

vanilla flavoured cupcakes with nuttella and white chocolate especially for that dearest ma'am nana.

me and her.

mapau's featuring ma'am nana.

I try to sleep but the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me.

CLASS REUNION.

2008-02-25T13:55:00.004+08:00

CLASS REUNION!

one week down. another week to go. ahaaa. time really flies man.

anyways this whole week have been okay. just that the weekends sucks. had to work 5-11 on saturday night. and did practically nothing on sunday. bleeaahh. boring and lazy sundayyyy.

but apart from that the weekday have been filled with work. on monday was sick. supposed to work 1-11pm on that day. in the end i went home at six cause the body really dont feel good. thanks adik for extending. youre the best! (: and then tuesday after werk, lepak with the mapau gang at skate park. wednesday was just another normal day.

then on thursday. was the date with erika putri. wooohhoo. went to yck to meet her after her exam. then off to plaza sing. went to BK for late lunch before we proceed to hit the cinema to catch Jumper. heh. very nice and entertaining show. next show need to watch is the L thingy and also the leap years. ahaaah. and then after the movie, we just walked around P.S cause i wanted to get something but in the end didnt. and then like usual, we will walk to singapore river. and then we just slack till 9 before we went off. reached home! and then it was bro's 17th birthday celebration. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! wahseyy. dah dapat hp baru.

and then on friday, a day which ive been looking forward to since like what? it was the 5-2 class reunion. haa. first had to work 12-5. after werk, met kak pah at cck. seperti biase aku lambat. and then took 190 to bukit panjang. went to jordan's condo at mayspring. wahhhsehh. its been soo long seh. everyone's soooo grown up. bowei's even in NS already. still can remember the childish us when we're still in sec 3. time really flies. we played heart attack and others. and then there's one point i got abit left out cause they were all talking bout poly life. hah. and they even asked me when im getting married. insyaallah in years to come, i'll invite all.

and then we had dinner. credits to jordan's mum for the nice fooood. hahah. and then after dinner, basically we just sit and catch up with one another. and then loretta even offered me a job! with gooood pay. ahaha. mat noh is forever crazy. kak pah's still the same ol kak pah. and guess what? everyone said i changed alot. hahaha. cause i used to be this very loud girl. and they say now i'm much quieter. and they missed the old me. entah la eh. i thought i've always the same. noisy, crazy mariah. and then we packed everything at around 11. and took a final pic to end the day. then its time to say gooodbye. like very sad to part seh. :'( and then weijie drove me and kak pah to cck int. mucho gracias for the ride, hotstuff! and then it was friday. (:

i missed going to school. err. secondary school i mean. ahaha. we'll have another one soon okie. this time, make sure Ms Kua will be around. wooohhhooo! i lovelove 5-2 (2005) !!!

this whole week will be working from monday to thursday. and then it'll be KL on friday till prolly next monday. but hopefully i can get back on sunday. i really do. cause i wanna go sabo people. haha. please daddy. send me home on sunday before 11pm. pretty please.

okay gotta go get ready for work! 3-11pm today.
have a great week lovelies. (:

you're always in my heart. just like a tattoo.

2008-02-16T16:21:00.003+08:00

OCH!

firstly, happy v'day to people out there who celebrated it. anyways swensens was busy as ever during the vday period. and i had to work 3-11pm on that day. we were short of staff and everywhere jammed. runner jammed. fountain not enough glassware. i had to do my cashier bills. and basically the three managers had to run the floor plus this gerl who were attached to westmall from imm. one word, messy! i really wished people will be extra cooperative. but yeah, none. how sad.

sooo many things happened for the past 3 weeks. i dont know what to say. if only i can turned back the time, i wouldnt want it to happen. it hurts me to see you getting hurt.

anyways maam nana will be transferring to IMM in march which is just 2 weeks away from now. i just cant imagine things will turn out without her. i guess i'll be staying there abit longer. at least 3 months. i cant leave them just like that. especially maam lihui. i think shes really stressed over this. i cant do much to help but i really hope things will stay the way it is.

anyhoos, last saturday on the 9th. me and the swensens peeps went to thon at changi. and then we explore OCH, old changi hospital. it was very creepy. didnt want to go in at first. but finally went in. alhamdulillah, nothing bad happened. i didnt see anything except for the white burung yang terbang atas kite. and then aku ade dengar bunyi merepek. naik bulu roma ku. and then we leave changi to tampines at 6.30pm. and then went to McD to have breakfast. then rushed to work 9-5. reached abit late. gerek. boleh buat lagi k next time. here's the OCH peeks.
for more can view at my multiply.

and then on weds was hercules's last day. one of the saddest day ever. he'll be going back to philipines on monday. and here's some random peeks.

red white black merah. muke stop it eh nadiah.

going to ecp for chalet with the cousins later on! tomorrow working at 7am. baik kepe! hahah. anyways take care yall. have a great weekend yaw. (:

p/s: i just want you to know that i'll always be there for you. i'll always pray for your health and your well being. hopefully nothing bad will fall upon you. i cant bear to see those tears again. insyaallah you'll be okay. please take care of yourself when i'm no longer there to be with you. i love you. i really do.

PANTUN JOM!

2008-02-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

MARI BERPANTUN!

okay. this is a WARNING! this whole post is gonna be in malay.

semalam aku jumpe Nizal kat jurong east. seperti biase member lambat. then aku got this urge untuk berpantun through sms. so here it goes.

mariah:
angin sepoi sepoi bahasa buat ku sejuk sekali. wahai nizal, dah nak naik taxi?

nizal:
angin menderu tubuh menggigil. tapai basi dibuang ketepi. kasar kasar batu kerikil. taxi ku tunggu tak kunjung mari.

mariah:
power bethol pantun mu. tak terbalas aku. aku sejuk macam batu. brape lama lagikah harus ku tunggu?

nizal:
cantik bunga kenanga dipandang sekilas. mungkin lagi due belas?

mariah:
sungguh lama harus ku tunggu. aku hisap rokok dulu! (HAHAHA.)

nizal:
jongkang jongket tari kecapi. kau dah keluar dari stesen mrt?

mariah:
aku suka tarian melayu. di tangga ku tunggu mu. cepat sikit wahai nizal ku.

AMACHIAM? aku ade bakat tak. hahaha.

anyways biler die dah sampai. went off to kembangan for his auditions. and then since dah kat east, we went to terminal 3 untuk explore. had luch at popeyes. then walked around terminal 3 and met ma'am teety at earls. pastuh gi terminal 2. pastu gi terminal 1. pastuh patah balik terminal 2. then finally we settled down for starbucks. and then i jumpe my long lost, abang ariff!!! and cause of that, we got discount. 6 bucks for the venti drink. tak ke mengancam? and then we just lepak kat luar with ciggies sampai pantat naik cramp before we took train back to west. then biler kat tanah merah, our camwhoring starts. kekek la i tell you.

afterwhich we lepak at jurong east. blueberry tea and Rokiahs (seperti mane nizal cakap.) and then we went off at around 11 or so. sooo let the pictorials do the talking k.

and whenever i look each and every of the gambar. boleh buat aku ketawe rolling rolling on the ground. nizal, lets have more of it k! (:

have a great week lovelies.

I give my heart to you, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

UPDATES.

2008-01-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

YEEHHAAWW!

HAPPPYYY 19th NIZAL!
it was nice seeing you again yesterday night after soo long. you never fail to make me smile. (: may you always be in good heath and happy-happy selalu. dont stress too much ok. may your birthday be as special as you are! god bless. :)

anyways, after the long MIA. i'm back. i wont update every single detail though. so let the pictorials do the talking aye.

sentosa with bugs, trish and bf.

then, sentosa again. this time with billy, danny, haryati and bugs.

below are just some random pics.

sooo. amachiam? banyak tak gambar? hohoho.

anyways things are doing great now. nothing much. just that i need to make a decision soon. whether to take it up or not. must think of the possibilities. the only thing that im afraid is, can i commit myself? hmm. just let time will tell la eh. insyaallah.

i'm really worried for that maam nana. i really hope she'll be fine. :(

today was diyana's last day in swensens. although i wasnt that close to her, but somehow i can feel the lost. heh. dont know why. and this is wad she msg me after we went to our seperate ways;
"slalu merindui dan mengingatimu." awwwwww. touching kan. hurhur!

today's only the 26th. and i'm soo broke. 31st. faster come!

tom werk 9-5pm. dont know why but i'm sooo lazy goddamnit!!!

i hate my heart, cause it hurts without you.

BUSY YAW.

2008-01-18T18:03:00.000+08:00

LITTLE MISS BUSY!

pardon me for the lack of updates. been super busy.
sooon yaw. :)

you made me smile, even its just a while. <3

NEW YEAR!

2008-01-07T16:57:00.000+08:00

:))

if you were to ask hows my week coming along? well i gotta say its a blast with a capital B. ahahhas. so here's the update!

monday; 311207.
eve of new year. eve of PH. had work 9am-5pm. work was super crazy. one of the craziest day i ever had in swensens. sooooo much things to do. orders non stop. super super long queue. and i had to extend till 7pm just to top up stuffs at fountain. sooo much to do. like washing the fountain floor (which i never do. heheh.) dip cherry and wafer. scoop crunchie cones and fondue. and alot more. was super pissed offff with someone. but then she just know how to make me smile. hahah. and so i had to do everything until 7pm! then maam lihui signed me OT eh! wooohhhooo! okay then go back. supposed to change and go for countdown somewhere with frens. but ended up didnt. cause was toooo tired. heh. =pp

tuesday; 010108.
work 5-11pm. dont know why i was soo looking forward to work. hahahas. must be because of that faizah la! ok and then did runner. it was quite busy until about 8plus. wahh jammed alot of times. ahahhas. and then was kinnda pissed off with the robin. dont know la. and then someone made me even more pissed by calling me emo! i noe la i emo. but u dont have to make me feel so irritated right. i think if youre not my ________
(fill in the blank), i would have asked you to shut the fuck up. alot of tension siak. was so pissed that i couldnt even smile.

wednesday; 020108.
OFF DAYYYY! meet up with the boopies. this time round, abit of dissapointment. our van outing didnt make it at last. i was sooo late. supposed to meet at 1. but i only start to bathe at 1. and i think i made them really pissed. sooo, raf and yani fetched me from home and off to town. meet up with yanah, dynah and norlin at taman ros fareast for lunch. and then we couldnt make up our mind where to go. and we ended up at cathay for movie. watched national treasure 2. 3.5 stars for it. before that, went to hang out at PS the starbucks. after movie, met aminah bee at raffles place. then jurong east pasar malam and then cabbed home.

thursday; 030108.
5-11pm. didnt get to celebrate dad's birthday. totally forgot about it. hurhur. nothing much happened. so yeah.

friday; 040108.
OFF again! supposed to meet razmi for movie. but in the end didnt cause his uncle passed away. al-fateha. so ended up staying home. then bugs was soo different on that day. i went down to smoke, and when i got up. i saw her slippers at my dooor. and i was sooo shocked to see her at my sofa waiting for me. thanks for the wonderful suprise bugs. it was really sweet of you to come over. really appreciate it alot alot. and then met hafiz at basement. then did nothing the whole day. hahah.

saturday; 050108.
12-5pm. work was okay. nothing much. after work, supposed to meet up with kak lin, abg cute, fahm and the rest of the ex collegue at starhub. but i kindda buih them last minute. ahahahs. promised will make it up to them sooon. so i met faizah at dhoby ghaut and watched AVP2 at the cathay! nice movie. we had a very long talk. from sec sch days to everything la. and then after the movie, smoked and went off. :))

and then today. work 12-5pm. okay nothing much also. then shadiq fetched me. it think he waited for me for quite long. sorry uh. and then we went to pizza hut. he treat me! niceeee. heheh. and then waited for bugs at the concourse before we headed to JP to get my stuffs. afterwhich we had bubble tea, ramly burger, kropok lekor and chicken seaweed at the block near to jp. and then took train to admiralty. thanks to them for the great and wonderful day. :)

and then after all the great time. tomorrow school starts. shucks marn. 2 months to go. well im not too sure for me. maybe 4 months? must repeat. haiz. damnit laaa. 2 months is just like 2 years.

siraj, i misss youuu loads. hope our date tomorrow will go on well. hahah. anyways i met someone who called himself as mr.charisma. chatted with him for quite some time. and i think he knows me best. thanks for telling me to smile always. but he's still someone mysterious for me. ahahas. but still, i appreciate everything, mr charisma. :)

so before i end this post. lets the peektures do the talking.
have a great week yaw!

BOOPIES.

late night with aminah.

bugs litte suprise! i lovelove that little ms sunshine!

shadiq and bugs day!

is this the way its meant to be?

RESOLUTIONS

2008-01-02T07:24:00.000+08:00

HELLO 2008!

as promised, this post gonna be the list of resolutions for 2008. anyways, its in random order ok.

1) get a driving licensce soon.
no more 2B licensce. sooo class 3 here i come! hopefully can enrol asap. and then i can have my own transportation.

2) get a full time job.
this is a must! since i'm gonna graduate from ITE soon, i must get a full time job by august. insyaallah.

3) stop being lazy.
i really must do something about this. stop being lazy and do at least something good to myself. like going to school and try not to skip school that often. keyword is TRY NOT. hehehe.

4) start exercising.
hahahas. this one i donoe when i last did. okay i remembered taking the napfa test when i was in year 1. ahahhas. maybe i should gain my stamina back. i really should la.

5) quit smoking.
i noe this is abit too impossible. but still, i'll try.

6) start saving up.
stop wasting money on unnecessary stuffs like ciggies. must save up for future use. for my private diploma school. MDIS here i come! :)

7) forget the past.
forget whatever that happened last. and learn to move on.

8) time and temper management.
must manage my time well. and stop being too emo. abit also want to cry.

9) steer away from that minah-ish look.
i dont know about this. cause i dont think i'm a minah. but i dont understand why people have been calling me minah. weird siak.

10) people keep saying that i'm bad.
i should revamp my character. hehe.

11) be more friendly.
cause people say my kening ternaik so they thought i very unsocialable. padahal only. but once you know the real me, it'll be totally different.

12) dont get too distracted.
i dont know why but i easily get distracted by anything. heheh. concentrate!

13) lovelove.
try to work it out with that someone and be the best for him. and i must lots of faith. yeap lots of it i guess. heh.

14) start cleaning my own stuffs.
dont everything also ask the maid to do for me.

15) start praying.
i think i should start to pray 5 times a day and be a very good daughter. (macam paham)

yeah i think thats about it. cant think of anymore already. so there you go. hope 2008 will be a blast! :))

FAREWELL.

2008-01-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

FAREWELL.

today marks the ending of 2007. lets welcome 2008 together. :)) and below will be the highlights of the year, 2007. enjoy!

the fun yet kecohrable outings with Boopies.

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and then with the ITE people. Hong Kong, De'Artiste and the hanging out times.

and then the times spent with the swensens peeps. :)

and they are the reason why i love my life. lovelove!

besides the good times, life's always full ups and down. and if can i wanna put everything behind and start everything on the brand new year. but somehow getting into that bike accident is something i cant forget. hahah. experience huh. and some others.

2007 also somehow bring people together and also tearing us apart.
having my bugs. knowing that she'l always be there. she's the bestest bugs ever. and we got even closer in 2007 right? remember the day we first went out together although we've been bugs soo long? hahaha. will always treasure my bugs. more bugsdays to come aye. loveya!

and then, nizal and i somehow drifted apart. as well as aminah bee. what ever happened? and i miss hanging out with them. just missed the times when we were together.

and then the beginning of the year, i kindda fall in love. but i guess nothing lasts right. we somehow drifted apart and things just cant work out. was it you or was it me? but you made the times we had worthwhile although it was for a very short period of time. you'll always be my loplop today tomorrow and forever. -kening naik naik- :))

and most importantly, this 2007 made me realised how much each and everyone matters to me. that i should cherish everything before its lost. life's short and i want it to be a fun and a meaningful one.

tomorrow's 5-11. new year resolutions coming up next! enjoy the holidays lovelies. and happy new year! enjoyenjoy! :)

you were my everything.